Kept Alive by Participation
Today, someone from my childhood died. His name was John. John was my sister Courtney's dad, but he was also part of my life for most of my childhood and…
35 Years
Tomorrow, I turn 35. And honestly… this past year changed me. It held exhaustion and beauty.Grief and reconciliation.Late-night tears and tiny newborn yawns.Hard conversations.Second chances.Old dreams resurfacing in new forms.…
To the Two Years We Didn’t Get
Tomorrow you would have been two. I sit here wondering what your voice would sound like, the shrill of your precious laugh, the shape of your grin, the rhythm of…
When I Stopped Pretending
We visited a new church a couple weeks ago. And the sermon felt… uncomfortably close to home. The pastor talked about how so many of us are pretending. Especially now—when…
To the Friend Who Couldn’t Stay
For anyone who has been loved conditionally in the name of "doing what's right". Sometimes the hardest breakup isn’t romantic. Sometimes it’s the friend who loved the version of you…
Starlight’s Debut
Amaryllis Eliana Faye AMARYLLIS “To sparkle.” A winter-blooming flower that opens even when the season is still cold. A name that means: I bloomed anyway. I rose again. I arrived…
Protected: A Letter of Consecration
For Myself, as I cross the threshold from West to SouthJanuary 27, 2026 You have walked the wave of the West—the path of letting go,of unraveling what was never yours…
Onward & Upward to 2026
As the sun goes down on 2025— this beautiful pink-and-orange sky, a gentle 50-degree evening— I’m reflecting on this past year. This time last year, I never would’ve envisioned my…
Starlight
“Starlight,Star bright, first star I see tonight,I wish I may, I wish I might,have the wish I wish tonight.” Sometimes, wishes come true years after you whisper them into the…
Fourteen Years
Fourteen years, I said "I do."But this past year almost broke that vow. Not from hatred. Not from betrayal.But from grief that split me openand a silence that swallowed who…